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my struggles
Tuesday, July 10, 2007

sigh. i really hate the way i am. the way i threatened to blame them if i'm gonna have to suffer for 5 yrs in some place that isnt my ideal choice when the truth is, deep down, i'm just afraid to make a firm decision and give them a clear indication of where i would like to go. my mum says i just want to find somebody to blame and thinking abt it, i guess it's true and i'm horribly disgusted. i've done it before and i'm doing it again. i'm such a bloody wimp.

and even now, that i've kinda decided where i wanna go, it's too late to make a 'hurtless' change cos too many heated words have been exchanged. i hate myself for being disrespectful. i noe the sum of money (~half a million) is a huge one and the very intention of letting me pursue my dreams is already more than i can ask for. i feel especially ashamed cos I have not honoured God as I have not treated my parents with respect. my behaviour last night was totally unacceptable. GAHS. i really hate myself. i'm such a idiot. sigh.

on one hand, i do want to make my own decisions but den again i seriously doubt my judgement in this area. i mean my parents have a combined age of over 100yrs- surely they know more than i do! furthermore, they are God- given and God speaks through them in many ways! it's tough trying to live a Christ- like life and it just keeps getting harder every minute. I pray that God will change my heart and make me accept wherever i go without continuing to complain abt having to abide by my parents' wishes when really they have been the ones who have supported and stayed by my side all these 19 years. In fact their decision makes so much more sense as compared to my frivolous reasons for wanting to go to uk. I pray for repentence O LORD!

hmm. debo it's really time to make a change!
on another note, my bro's birthday is this thur. he's really been a big part of my life and has been the bestest-est-est big brother in the whole wide world- and i'm not just saying it; i mean it. i love you kor! i shall make smores for you on thur! :P

justin's coming back from brunei tonight! flight leaves brunei at 11pm. hopefully our early breakfast plans can proceed! :P

my bro just showed me this on youtube! soo cute!

another video worth watching- connie! she's only 6!


and this dancer!

webo @ 10:09 PM