gahs. i can feel my spiritual life starting on a downward spiral :/
NO. i shall stop its spiralling. and i will. today.

helped my daddy with another ecg today! feeling ribs and intercostals does get quite hard with adipose tissues. i got to do a venipuncture (to draw blood) too! first time but with my dad guiding my hands! haha but cool. at least i wont be so scared next time cos i wont be doing it for the first time without any experience or guidance!
i mean i've helped to push the syringe and all a few times (during injections) before but this was the first time i actually pierced the needle into a vein. so yeah cool stuff. head start in clinicals even before the clinical years! haha :)

ok but in all my excitement abt doing all these cool and new stuff, i think it's impt tt i always rmb to humanize the situation. all may not be well for the patient in qn. esp after doing an ecg which well, isnt totally normal. so yeahs. to cure sometimes, to relieve often but to comfort always. yes.
webo @ 2:27 AM

i am so freaking stoned :/
webo @ 8:37 PM

i did mention before that i find uni so much slacker than secsch or jc
but zomg it does get pretty stressful! esp when i have to really think so much!!
but guess i'm very fortunate and blessed cos i've got my daddy to ask and discuss qns with
still, it's no walk in the park
no walk at all!

gonna use next week to revise anat. and oh i hope (and i'll pray tonight!!) that physio will stay in my head as i labouriously knock anat stuff into my brain next week. yeah i might as well just take snell and knock my head with it. hai and i really dont wanna think abt biochem! so much to remember :S

anyways, here's my current playlist:
greatest story ever told- oliver james
long time coming- oliver james
i try- macy gray

good playlist for studying! oliver james btw, is that goodlookin guy from what a girl wants.
i realise i have this thing for cute, boyish looking angmoh actors who can sing. jesse mccartney, zac efron, oliver james. i think they all have this similar look. ok xcept for oliver james cos he has black hair but yeah. haha which is quite a good progress from alecsu (ZOMG. why deb why?) and jerryyen. haha oh but i still think jerry yen is quite goodlooking.

on another note, i've outlasted 3 flourescent light tubes! 2 in my living room and 1 in my room
ok i really should go sleep alr! i've been walking into stuff!
webo @ 3:38 AM

funorama was ok. normal funfair stuff
great thing abt it was getting to meet pple :):)
and spending time with sheryl and gen (:(:
i didnt know wad to spend my coupons on though
haha
webo @ 11:01 PM

here's an old school number from somebody with the same hair as me
i used to find this song irritating but now, i really love it
awesome song writer; wouldnt u just agree?

anyhoos, i realise that i might have some form of lactase deficiency. afterall, i AM oriental aint i? (orientals are more predisposed to lactose intolerance)

webo @ 4:16 AM

how it feels to be insignificant

nothing really new's been happening. xcept that pros will be happening in less than 3 weeks. O.O
i'm starting to realise that biochem isnt gonna be the piece of cake i thought it would be despite my bio background. there's just so much to rmb! i dun even wanna start thinking abt anat. :S

anyway i think i should get a nintendo ds. i'll have too much time on my hands after pros. so hint hint pple ;p my birthday is coming soon. gosh my twentieth birthday. less than 3 months to be a teenager. which makes me wonder how i spent my teen years. i never really felt turning 17 or 18 or 19. so maybe that's wad the hustle and bustle of life does to you. and now when uni is so much slacker, vhoom. it hits you. u're darn old. 20 freaking years old.

ok shall stop whining and get back to my notes.
webo @ 7:11 PM

dopamine is a very interesting chemical. and prob my fav hormone of all time. which is cool cos it starts with d too. heh :D chemicals and hormones really affect the body's functioning and moods so much, it's terribly amazing. if i could, i'd prob do a research paper on dopamine and related neurochemicals. (i dont really know wad a research paper is yet. but yeah u get my drift. it's very interesting)

i mean like wow. imagine how just a certain chemical can trigger so many emtions. and if one could just tweak those levels, many feelings will go. like feelings of sadness, depression and missing someone.

oxytocin's another interesting hormone. apart from it's role in pregnancy, it's a really feel good hormone'. it breeds positive feelings, facilitates learning, diminshes sense of pain, repairs, heals and restores and even lowers blood pressure and protect against heart diseases!
it's such a great chemical yet cos it cant pass the blood-brain barrier (xcept in the form of nasal sprays), we cant just take oxytocin pills to raise our oxytocin levels.

"Oxytocin equates with love; we could not fall in love without it. Cortisol equates with fear. These different hormones generate these opposing emotions, just as the emotions of love and fear trigger the production of these respective hormones. In other words, neurochemicals and behavior are circular. This means that with a bit of awareness and determination we can consciously direct our behavior toward the maintenance of our ideal hormonal balance. "
-http://www.reuniting.info/science/oxytocin_cortisol_love_fear

i think the last sentence is really amazing. see! hormones are so powerful!
ok back to dopamine.
dopamine triggers the pleasure/reward center of the brain and can be released by naturally rewarding experiences such as food and sex. (i so agree with the first one!)
it is also responsible for the 'high' pple get with a new partner. (see the coolidge effect) very interesting though i don't condone it (hey, biology is no excuse!).
low levels can lead to Parkinsons. and high levels to psychosis and schizophrenia.

very amazing.
i think i like neurotransmitters and the brain a lot! (watching 'my brilliant brain' triggers my dopamine levels SKYHIGH. i get super high. just ask my dad.)
hurr but tt's for now. hopefully it wont change once i start on neuroanatomy (God willing, the next academic year! no retain no retain!)

ok with that,
i think i better start studying for my physio tmr.
so i wont retain.
zomg. histo was a terrible killer. now i'm not even sure if i got even 1 of the 13histo qns right!
(pls be chief cell!! pls be chief cell!!!) and i even got the easy peasy leydig cell wrong!! i was so thinking leydig but for some reason i had to write sertoli. O.O) tt's like 26 marks confirm gone alr. cos all the cells look the same! only thing going through my mind then was, "zomg how many microscopes more to go!" sighhh hopefully gross anat will let me pass!
but on hindsight, spots are somewhat interesting la. every 45secs, they'll ring the bell and u move on to the next specimen/rest station. how often do u get an exam like that?? cool stuff
alright. physio now!
webo @ 11:45 AM

just got home and yay today i got to help my dad do an ecg today. heh :D
den did some shopping with my mommmyy
AND i bought 1 pair of shoes! hehe
i wanted another pair of slippers but dont have my size :( boohoos
AND now i have kfc for lunch :D yay yay :P
byebye
:d

/EDIT/
haha zomg i love eating kfc with my dad cos we pull out random pieces of meat and start to guess what we just pulled out. like artery?? nerve?? from some foramen. HAHA :P
webo @ 2:51 PM

webo @ 1:59 AM

last day as m1 (11march2008)
i'm mighty small. somewhere far at the back! locate the 2nd wooden panel and move down. there's my puny face! nat on my right and kevin diagonally behind on my left.
God willingly, it'll be my only yr as m1! must pass pass pass! i want my 4month holiday!


webo @ 4:47 PM

deb feels very blessed today! :)
i dunno why but today i feel joy. deep joy :) deep deep joy :) like no other.
maybe it's cos i've been thinking about how much God has blest and done for me.
yest was our official last day/lecture as a year 1.
it's so fast and it seems like just yesterday that nus called me while i was in my lil corner, beside the toilet, getting damn pissed off with a certain travelagent and facebooking during work.
webo @ 3:09 PM

webo @ 12:56 AM

webo @ 2:24 AM

orlanda's play was really really good. thoroughly enjoyed myself. :):) and so that was the bachelor's club's first outing :) and it was even greater cos sheryl was there too :) AND we gotta ride in gwee's mini cooper!

anyhoos studying's taking its toll on me. this aft after brunch, i decided to take a nap and i set my alarm clock and when it rang, i thought i got up and started studying really hard, like feeling the input and all, only to realise it was a dream. and when i really woke up i realise i didnt really 'study' anything. evidently. was a dream wad.

sighhh. go debs comeon.

you got that extraordinary way
without even doing anything
why oh why?

i hate that fish you always cook!
(pause)
i always choke on the bones...
-ileftmyheartatoutrampark

well, some guy really DID leave his heart at outram park haha
but he deserved it
murderer

webo @ 7:04 PM

webo @ 12:44 AM

i really should study with my comp off more often. helps a great deal! BUT...i cant live without msn cos it keeps me in touch with beloved pple overseas!

so anyways i cant wait till FRIDAY!! cos it's gonna be our first bachelor's club outing.
we're gonna watch landa's ileftmyheartatoutrampark play!
i'm not a bachelor..i'm a bachelorette but what can i say...i rawk so much that kevin, daelen and ryan want to recruit me HAHAHA kiddin
i'm the liason personnel and president? i dunno they keep changing my position but i dun care i'm insisting tt the club name includes a bachelorette somewhere cos i'm not a boy!
daelen came up with calling me deBRO. haha right. but i dont care. i'm so not gonna be a boy and even then i'd rather be called drew cos it starts with D like my real name (oh i jsut realised debro starts with d too but wth) and cos i like the song teardropsonmyguitar which has a drew!

hehe cos i'm very hungry now. but i think i shd go sleep cos tmr's a looooong day. sigh pbl!

anyway to u, u hateful smelly shoe fan;
u might be reading this now since u say u read my blog
well i enjoyed tt lil chat just now.
but you're still hateful
and i'm gonna name my skull after u once it arrives

maybe it's the familiarity of it all
webo @ 2:17 AM

my 1 week break is over! :(

1 more post till that awful song is gone of this loading page.
i did like it for a while but now it's getting freaking whiny.

anyhoos, today's message was truly a reminder to me.
in more ways than one, i think i'm really like the pple of israel.
one moment, God delivers me and does something really powerful in my life (like how he helped them israelites escape from eygpt and cross the red sea) but the next moment, i'm off getting all my priorities wrong.
it's kinda like how them israelites got aaron to fashion a golden calf outta their goal. cos in the same way, i've been making my own 'idols'- things which i've been placing above God.
thanks for the reminder dear lord!

i loved the closing hymn today! but i cant seem to find the lyrics or at least those online dont look like when i'm looking for.

and should i stumble again,
i'm caught in your grace


webo @ 1:14 AM

beehoons just told me some very interesting stuff. u never fail to make me laugh man beeswax!! hang in there ya!! so anyway here's another of my intellectual posts dedicated to you

it's been a reaaaallly long while since i've read the newspapers so today during my brunch, i decided to have a go at TODAY. and on the front page, there was a report abt how a 58yr old guy made a prank call to the police claiming to be the terrorist that escaped. when i first read it i couldnt believe that some old guy like that will take the trouble to do this kinda mischeivious stuff. but well, after a while i figured tt maybe it could be linked to something deeper..to like throw the police off or smtg. but it's all my speculation. heh heh neat ehs.

ok 2nd insight: the ban on smoking in more areas. man i applaud that. yes! i think we've come a long way since the time smoking ads were prevalent on tv (or so i heard cos i dont think i was even born yet) so kudos to a smoke-freer country!

haha it's been a long time since i've done thinking or my brain has worked in this way. damn sad right? haha cos it's always piled with info from snell/moore/guyton and it never works when i'm around pple cos i get to distracted abt wadever's going on. but now, with more time on my hands, yeah. pretty refreshing. not extremely deep thoughts but yeah good enough for me. :) some current issues so yeah (:(:

anyways studying's been really slow for me. i think i'm a pretty temperamental learner cos i can only learn and study on days when i seem to be able to connect colours with learning points. kinda werid ehs.

liz just bumped started our hktrip discussion. man! i'm excited! hope it really works out! :)
webo @ 7:00 PM