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cardiology & blading

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

my last weekend was powerpacked! :) but before I go into that..lemme tell u abt yest! (i'll just copy and paste cos i blogged abt it in the other blog already and retying it is just..weird..haha)

yest, my colleague asked me to help her mend back her keychain thingy so wad i had to do is to kinda string the thick fabric loop of thread into a really tiny hole of a metal cover (get it?? haha nvm..not the main point) anyway she gave me this surgical looking tweezer thingy (not the pluck hair one ahh..) and with the help of the pin of the mg badge, I DID IT! and mann.. it felt good. think i might just take up cardiology in future. afterall, i love doing these intricate manual stuff. it's like so cool cos you have to think on your feet or even change the approach of how you're carrying out the 'operation'! and i love focusing on these lil things!! YEAH.. i love doing these mending thingys! hopefully i can mend/sew back bodies in future! haha..oh but think i might wanna be a gyne or obs person..cos babies are so cutEE! den i'll deliver all your kids.. :)

haha ok so yeah..one life changing experience for me. but u noe wad? i've had another one. its through rollerblading! rollerblading changed my life!! i went to west coast park last sat and bladed around with justin..so anyway, he figured out how to do this really cool turn on the blades. and i really wanted to be able to do it too! so i tried and tried and each time i did, i was really afraid that i would fall. but i kept trying!! and guess wad? i finally did it! slowly, bit by bit, from a 20degree turn to a 60degree turn and finally a 180degree turn! and now i can almost do a 270degree turn! so cool rite? so anyway, with my new found confidence, i decided to play the piano (my nemesis) when i got home. i attempted to play hanbera by bizet (u noe the UIC washing powder advertisement song) and i could play a rather decent tune! and i realised how much courage one needs to play the piano. it might seem like a lil thing but for me, yeah loads of courage needed- i've got to have the courage to press down the specified keys (on both the left and right hand) at the specified time and rhythm (as written on the piano score). it requires so much trust (on the music score)! stress mann. so anyway, bcos i could master that tough trick on blades, i told myself i could do it! and viola! THANK GOD for his wonderful way of showing me that I can do all things if I try and trust in Him! (yeah..eunice when i was blading to ur house to do yams' pressie, I was like praying ALL the way for God to protect me! and he did! i arrived in 1 piece HAHA :) )

*ok tt was the end of the paste. anyway, tt night tin and i went to catch license to wed with sean, jhoe and josh. we had to catch the midnight show due to there being no more seats (we wanted to catch bourne..darnn)..which was kinda cool. haha. cos i rarely stay go to town at abt tt time. so anyway, jhoe told me abt he cadevars at med sch. abt it being dipped into formaldehyde or smtg so it's like black and stuff.. freaky but kinda cool. i wonder if i'll get tt opp in monash. dont know whether they do cadevars or not. (i just found out i would..haha.. *bites nails in anticipation*)

alrighty..time for some pictures: rollerblading at wcp!
it was raining v heavily at one point mann.. so like we were drenched and stuff..cos the shelter had like holes?? it was my mum's family day as well so it was quite funny cos there were so many pple trying to shield themselves from the rain. (yes. ok so my sense of humour is kinda ermm..haha but it was funny..just too lazy to elaborate now...wanna talk to tin..lights out time already!! :)) so anyway once the rain stopped, we bladed in to macs and had coffee/hot choc while i did "When God Speaks" for yf and tin read his economics book. haha :P i love times like these!

at mccafe after the rainnn

latte/hot choc/biblestudy/book

looking at i dunno wad

playing rock, paper, scissors..

haha..ok..it was just a poser shot to show off our blades :X haha

boohoo..i lost

my hand at attempting to do an artistic shot of a pen
mccafe is great for chilling out!

coffeebean+heart=cuppa

oh yeah. i'm very happy today too! justin had like this 4 hour test but when he went for a lil toilet break, he called me! :P and tt's even though the test's like one with a really tight time limit. awww..i love ya boyy! :) ok gtg :P

webo @ 10:13 PM

diaoo

Friday, August 17, 2007

my daddy: u know why it's good tt m e l b/'n a s h will be boring?

me: why?

my daddy: cos then there's no distractions *pleased look*

me: o.O diaoo..

HAHA ohhkayy dad:) thanks for trying..haha :)
oh wells, guess it wont be tt bad la. after all i do like the sun, the sand and the sea..

and at least i can get my copy of DOLLY easily! :P

abt 3 more hours to book out time! :P yipee!

webo @ 5:50 PM

boreeddd

Thursday, August 16, 2007

at work now. but i'm soo bored! it's been a loong time since my workload has been this slack though..haha.. spent the last few days pia-ing (tt's the word rite?)
i finally managed to get web msn working despite all the weird blockers. HAHA

anyway, i was surfing facebook just now..and guess who walked past..
mann..i bet she saw the fuzzy heart liz sent me via the 'grow-a-gift' application. HAHA oops! oh mann..caught slacking..dangg..haha..but den again she didnt stop to say anything..soo..haha
mann..but i'm sure she saw it..my desk is right beside the toilet. anyone who walks out can see wad i'm doing...oops :X
anyways, i ran after her to pass her her document luggage for the coming trip. she almost forgot..fortunately i decided to run after her mann..if not there's gonna be a bigg problem!! pheww..thank GOD! :) so den i loaded it into her car and yeah..dat's all.

see//yeah..tt's how bored i am. blogging in detail abt everything..zzz half an hour more to go!!

webo @ 4:13 PM

HAPPY

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

omg. i cant believe how fast my mood has changed. God is GOOD!! :P
I'm quite excited now to begin studying med wherever I might be going :):)
i will be contented! :) u n i m e l b sent me a letter to contact them if i wish to be considered for the nov interviews.. but nahh..dont think i'll make my life more confusing. moreover, it's a 6 yr course..extra science degree..but nvm..dont intend to be a researcher anyway.. :P

i was just counting the amt of money i spent just on med sch applications all over the world- abt 15,000 buckaroos.
ucas application fee, soo many medsch admission tests (abt 300+ just for one), london trip, upcoming trip to liverpool, deposit to hold place. $.$ wad an expensive world
this is not even considering the course fees and to be cost of living!! i'm such an expensive child. oh welllsss...

anyway, did bible study today..doing the minor prophets now...verse to memorise:
"The Lord is good, a stronghold in the day of trouble. And He knows those who take refuge in Him." Nahum 1:7 :)

on another note, I CANT WAIT FOR THE WEEKEND!! :P

webo @ 10:58 PM

gahss...

gahs. i'm suddenly getting rather emo abt not going to liverpool again:( SIGHS.
why aren't i going there GOD? i noe you have your plans and i noe you gave me a choice..but somehow even though everything in my heart is telling me to go there, i end up in some place else. why is is always like that Lord? with jc, with uni. why is it that i always have to give in to pressures around me. i noe you have your reasons and your perfect plan but right now, at this point in time, with my short-sighted and lowly brain, I really cant seem to understand. pls help me to understand and help me to go through the next 5 years without regretting this decision and without tellin myself that i'm living in misery. guard my heart, my brain and my mouth from complaining and being uncontented. help me to take a step back and understand how fortunate I am to even study med overseas. help me never to forget that the course is expensive and help me never be an ungrateful brat towards my parents. You, Lord are my only hope. Draw me near to you Lord. Help me not to forget that you should take precedence over everything I do...and that you, Lord, should always be number 1 in my life. not my work, not my sleep, not anything else. help me O heavenly Father. I know you can.

anyways, prayer meeting is going on now but i'm at home. :( i just feel so tired. sighs. debo. noo.
oh wells, i've been thinking that i've got nothing to thank God for this week other than for my life and my parents and bro and for health and for comfortable lives, but after thinking about it again, I realise I do. and thinking about it, there is always something special to thank God for each week.

1. met K for the first time since 2004 (i think?) wad a cute little thing. I thank God for you and I know God has a special purpose for you on this Earth. May you grow up to love God as your one an true Saviour and heavenly father.

2. met a taxi driver (Taxi Jack..haha that's how he introduced himself) on my way back to m g after bringing a sick scholar to a doctor (haha.. yes my job does sometimes require me to do quite random stuff..it's fun though!) As we drove into m g, he asked if I was a Christian and told me that he was not but also not very sure bcos he's thinking of becoming a Protestant (currently a Catholic) and that he doesnt go to church cos he had to work. anyway, then we had a little chat and I gave him my name and church's address. hope he comes this Sunday. I really thank God for taxi jack! and the opportunity to invite him to church! I thank God for even the fact that he acknowledges that he is not really a christian even though he is a Catholic. i suppose he does know the difference and that's really by God's grace because a lot of catholics dont and inadvertently lose their chance to be with God when they pass on.

it's tough to be a Christian but it certainly is worth it. thanks Lord for dying on the cross for my sins! haha..some 2S mass msn convo going on now. shall go. taataa. :) I FEEL MUCH BETTER ALREADY LORD! in due tme, i will understand. :) thanks LORD!

webo @ 8:31 PM

smile :)

Sunday, August 12, 2007

webo @ 9:22 PM

liverpool vs aston villa 2-1

yest/this morning was awesome!! haha..after yf, tin, my bro and me went to watch the liverpool- aston villa match at liquid kitchen...liverpool's opening match for this epl season. omg. i cant stop loving liverpool!! :P haha.. the first half was actually quite lousy tho. but oh wells. 2nd half made up for it!! steven gerrad!! :):) well anyways, the match ended abt 2 so i got home quite late and i was really sleepy today..zzzz

anyways, went with my mum to the supermarket today..and i learnt how to choose apples, oranges and chicken. haha..den when we got home my mum showed me how to skin the chicken, clean and cut it up. quite fun! haha..think i can practice studying anatomy while cleaning up the chicken. cos when u cross-section it, you can see the organs and stuff. haha..i identified the heart, liver and kidneys. reminds me if my research attachment stint last time..where my mentor dissected the rat. haha. coolios. but it's kinda sick man. cos like i dunno, i cant help thinking about the chicken when it's alive. chopping it up just seems..so wrong! but anyways, i enjoyed eating it during dinner and i kinda forgot abt it..until now. haha

webo @ 8:12 PM

zzz

Friday, August 3, 2007

i'm feeling zzzzz now..
gahs. dont ask, seriously.

on another note,
i have smtg to look forward to tmr!
brunch at dempsey with gd gd frens! and nads is fetching (read: PICKING ME UP IN HER CAR) me. HAHA :P

webo @ 9:22 PM

i'm hungry

Thursday, August 2, 2007

just got back from prayer mtg. i love my church mates! lyd, the twins, darrell and jas and jaime!

anyway..apart from church, today was a pretty sucky day la.
gahs. i hate the e person from THAT travel agency. just cos she found out i'm just a temp, she talks to me with this condescending tone. like omg. stupid shit. u're just a travel agent man. wise up! gahs. her voice is like so damn loud and piercing too la. (i'm traumatised and scarred for the entire day everytime i have to speak to her..that's how bad it is..) think she must be this fat, compressed lady so got so much energy to talk so loudly..blehx..FAT LADY.
but i shouldnt be thinking like this..cos it isnt christlike. gahs. but i really cant help it. gotta get it outta my system. living a Godly life is hard. oh wells. nvm. i must try.

today the team left for kenya. pray that God will grant them strength and will touch the heart of the pple as they go about doing God's work!

anyways, back to uni stuff. this morning, i was contemplating getting a flat all the way for the 5 years. and maybe at most, me and eunice can give our flat a hallname! den we'll be leaving in a hall! HAHA but oh wells. think i shall stick with hall cos den i can meet new pple!
maeyen and wanlin said aussie's a great place for shopping! so yay. one more thing to look forward to! :P

going for supper now! yumyum

webo @ 12:03 AM

the send button

Wednesday, August 1, 2007

i've finally found the will to hit the 'send' button to send off my withdrawal letter to liverpool. :( the right decision? i really dont know.
well anyway, it's finally been done..on 1 aug 2007, 01 27hrs.
finally..after more than 2 weeks of hesistating and delaying...it was really really hard...i've been lingering at the "new message" page entire night before, hovering my mouse over the send button. well alas, to cut the long story short, i took a deep breath, closed my eyes, and sent the email off. so that's it i guess. I will not be spending the next 5 years in the UK. i'm rather uncertain whether i did the right thing. in fact i feel rather sad.

to remind myself of why i finally made such a decision:
*1. integrated course as opposed to tons of independent study
2. familiarity with pple
3. proximity and similar time zone

i'm such a wimp. something inside me screams that i should sometimes just take risks. dont give a shit abt how i'm gonna cope or how other pple think i'm never gonna cope..just get there and rough it out.
i mean seriously, i think i'm gonna find trying to cope with independent study better than trying to cook for myself (at monash). after all, the liverpool course does appeal to me and i've read from several monash med students tt their lectures are pretty boring and useless. to be frank, at this point in time i dont really see the need to study the sociology and 'ethics' of medicine, which monash, seems to have a knack for...not to mention rural practice. (mann. as i type this, i cant believe i actually sent off the stupid email. haiz.) ethics- there's no use debating what to do and what not to do rite? just do as your morals tell you to. gahs. sighs. WHY DEBO? sighs.

sighs. oh wells, guess i'm not anti-monash. just anti-"nomore liverpool":(
does that make sense?

webo @ 1:27 AM