ok so i just returned from my driving lesson and i tell you...I LOVE DRIVING!!
it's quite fun la. haha although i still erm occasionally stall on slopes hurr

anyhoos. i'm need help! see, today, my maid's at the agency cos she needs to get some permit done..so my breakfast/lunch was left on the table for me. it's nooodles..the brown kind yeah so i dont really want it cos i dun feel like eating brown noodles today.
i had chocolates for breakfast and crackers for lunch (:(: man i'm such a sucker for junkfood (HAHA think if i'm overseas i'll eat icecream for breakfast, lunch and dinner).
so anyways my mom told me to keep the noodles in the fridge if i dont want it..like abt 5 hrs ago :X but i just went to check the fridge..and there's no place!! how how? i dunno how to shuff it in!! boosiess. oh wellsss
crapsies. i'm so unindependent. but driving makes me feel independent. haha :P

last night i played with some fb applications and i took this quiz called "what kinda guy will you fall for"
here's my result:

You would fall for the frat boy.
You like to have a good time, and you want someone who's not afraid to go all out to have fun with you. Your man may belch at the dinner table, but you know you'll always have a crazy night ahead of you!

so i thought..sounds cool and well, pretty accurate except i dunno wad a frat boy is exactly..so i googled it and here, from urbandictionary.com:

frat boy
any college age, needle-dick, weed-smoking asshole who attends college only to party and flunk out. may use roofies to rape women, and finds destroying the property of others an enjoyable passtime. recognizable by

1) caucasian ethinicity
2) sleeveless t-shirts
3) inane, misogynistic babble
4) the ginormous SUVs (usually F-150s or Suburbans) with jacked-up wheels they drive, especially with stereos blaring rap or metal
5) visors, especially if worn upside-down, backwards, or a savory combination of the two
6) excessive use of the word "faggot"
7) possession of 40 oz beers, cigarettes, marijuana, and/or beer kegs (full-size or pony). especially alcohol stolen from the local grocery store (see beer run).
8) membership in a fraternity. (optional)
Origin: "frat" from fraternity, a kind of college social club/residency hall.
"i don't feel good, i think some fuckin frat boy slipped me a roofie back there."
"dude some drunk fuckin frat boy threw a rock at my car on the way over here."

zomg haha i didnt know frat boy means this! haha but ok la. it's quite true.
i mean they are kinda cool and interesting arent they? i like no. 5 HAHA so cute
hurr but i dont like the bit abt using roofies to rape women. tt is just so..wrong. and the misogynistic bit (see no.3).
HAHA but the inane babble is kinda cute though i think i'd be quite bored after a while.

hurr..but of cos it's just a quiz.
and it's only abt the kind that i would most likely fall for, at first.
i wouldnt wanna marry someboday like this!
HAHA ok..
shall start studying now
upperlimbslatissimusdorsibicepsbrachioradialis...zzzz

/EDIT/
ok i so had to add this into my post.
my dad just asked me if i wanted pistachio nuts so i was like ok
den he gave me
den as he was walking off, he sniggered, "like feeding botanical garden monkeys"
!!!!
DADD!!! bleehhhss..:P!!! bully...
webo @ 5:06 PM

F U N N N Y Y !!!
courtesy of my destress-er
haha

these are really really worth watching!!! totally cracked me up haha

webo @ 1:02 AM

beehoons! rmb how i was saying i shd start blogging more abt intellectual current issues rather than..err today i did this did that ? welll here's gonna be the first of a soon to come string of intellectual posts! *pushes up specs*

the terrorist escaped from the detention centre! when josh told me yest i thought he was joking like zomg i thought singapore's security's really tight. anyway, at sch today loads of pple were talking abt it. and the scariest thing is tt it's super near the west area cos it's at whitley. all the houses and schools! anyhows, i'm not too terrified by terrorist than the escape itself..cos i thought security's really really tight. so yeah.

anyhoos. i was just doing a tongue examination in front of the mirror just now. wah my tongue is so ugly siah. hurr. i was trying to find the filiform and fungiform papillaes and the submandibular and sublingual ducts. but i realise the back of my tongue has many red dots i'm not too sure wad tt is cos even if there are supposed to be it should be nearer the front. or maybe i rmbed wrongly or smtg. could they be lymphoid nodules?? or maybe it's cos i just ate a whole tube of mentos lime mint. mmm..dunno dunno
webo @ 12:30 PM

my cicardian rhythmn is so messed up. i'm so totally suferring from insomnia zzz :(
i just cant sleep :/
and i didnt sleep in the afternoon today
anyhow, thought i'd do a bit of reading: the sleep cycle
really interesting
and think i better try sleep now cos sleep deprivation leads to an increased risk of obesity :/
and i gotta be in school in less than 5 hrs

How we fall asleep
Our bodies provoke us to sleep by sending messages from our circadian clocks – our inner time-keeping, temperature-fluctuating, enzyme-controlling devices. The circadian clock works in tandem with adenosine, a neurotransmitter that “turns down” many of the bodily processes that make us feel awake. Adenosine is created as our cells create the power needed to move us though the day. As the level of adenosine builds up in our brains, we feel sleepier. Along with corresponding messages from the circadian clock, this alerts us that its time to sleep.

Prior to starting the sleep cycle, we first spend a few moments in a state of “relaxed wakefulness”. Most people stay in this stage for less than ten minutes, but the time you spend in relaxed wakefulness can offer clues to how well you are sleeping. If you are falling asleep the moment your head hits the pillow, you are either a very good sleeper, or you are extremely sleep deprived.

Stages of sleep: the sleep cycle
Sleep is a periodic state of rest during which consciousness of the world is interrupted. Additionally, sleep is marked by:

decreased movement of the skeletal muscles;
a relaxed posture, usually lying down;
reduced response to stimulation, such as sounds and touch;
slowed-down metabolism; and
complex and active brain wave patterns.
Sleep is divided into two types: REM (Rapid Eye Movement) sleep and NREM (non-REM) sleep. REM sleep is when we dream. NREM sleep is further divided into four stages. A typical night of sleep follows this pattern:


Stage 1 (Drowsiness) - When you first fall asleep, you are in Stage 1 sleep (Drowsiness). Stage 1 lasts just five or ten minutes. Eyes move slowly under the eyelids, and muscle activity slows down. You are easily awakened during Stage 1 sleep.
Stage 2 (Light Sleep) -Next, you go into Stage 2 sleep (Light Sleep). In Stage 2, eye movements stop, heart rate slows, and body temperature decreases.
Stages 3 & 4 (Deep Sleep) - Then you enter Stages 3 and 4 (Deep Sleep). During stages 3 and 4, you are difficult to awaken. People who are awakened during Deep Sleep do not adjust immediately and often feel groggy and disoriented for several minutes after they wake up. Children may experience bedwetting, night terrors, or sleepwalking during Deep Sleep.
REM sleep (Dream Sleep) - At about 70 to 90 minutes into your sleep cycle, you enter REM sleep. You usually have three to five REM episodes per night. Your eyes jerk rapidly in various directions under your eyelids, thus the name Rapid Eye Movement (REM) Sleep.
The first sleep cycles each night contain relatively short REM periods and long periods of deep sleep. As the night progresses, REM sleep periods increase in length while deep sleep decreases. By morning, people spend nearly all their sleep time in stages 1, 2, and REM.

What happens during the REM sleep stage?
During REM sleep, you dream actively, but your limb muscles are immobile. Your breathing is rapid, irregular, and shallow. Your heart rate increases, your blood pressure rises, males may have penile erections, and females may have clitoral enlargement. Your brain is at least as active during REM sleep as it is when you are awake.

Because your major muscles do not move during REM sleep, you will not act out your dreams. (Sleepwalking occurs during NREM sleep.)

Infants spend about 50 per cent of their sleep time in REM sleep; after infancy, you spend fifteen to twenty per cent of your sleep time in REM sleep.

The importance of deep sleep and dream sleep
Each stage of sleep offers benefits to the sleeper. However, deep sleep is perhaps the most vital stage, as it is the first stage that the brain attempts to recover when we are sleep deprived. If we do not get adequate deep sleep, we experience the strongest effects of sleep deprivation.

Deep sleep allows the brain to go on a little vacation needed to restore the energy we expend during our waking hours. Blood flow decreases to the brain in this stage, and redirects itself towards the muscles, restoring physical energy. Research also shows that immune functions increase during deep sleep.

REM sleep, or dream sleep, is also very important. This stage is associated with processing emotions, retaining memories, and relieving stress. Our brains suspend logic, and we lose all self-awareness – which is why we can experience ridiculous, irrational events in our dreams and believe them to be true.

If our REM sleep is disrupted one night, our bodies don't follow the normal sleep cycle progression the next time we doze off. Instead, we often go through extended periods of REM until we "catch up" on this stage of sleep. But, if deep sleep has been lost as well, our brain attempts to catch up on this stage first – in fact, the brain will try and make up all of the deep sleep it has lost and only half of the REM sleep.
webo @ 3:58 AM

webo @ 12:09 AM

today i really thank God for putting specific pple in my life to continually literally pull me back to God. everytime i feel like i'm slipping away, God places someone there to help direct me back to the right path. really thank God so much for lyd! my dear friend from childhood till now, my accountability partner and my discipler.

i've been having this bugging feeling to just like go on strike and stray away but i thank God for the sharing that we had. and for the reminder and gentle chiding to not conform to the world. to stay close to God and to trust in him completely. i really really thank God for pulling me back before my heart hardens!!

today we almost completed the first discipleship book and i thank God for these 5 assurances!
Assurance of Salvation, answered prayer, victory, forgiveness and guidance!

1. Assurance of Salvation
"And this is the testimony: God has given us eternal life, and the life is in his Son. He who has the Son has life; he who does not have the Son of God does not have life." -1 John 5:11-12

2. Assurance of Answered Prayer
"Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive and your joy will be complete." -John 16:24

3. Assurance of Victory
"No temptation has seized you expect what is common to man. And God is faithful, he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it." -1 Corinthians 10:13

4. Assurance of Forgiveness
"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us out sins and purify us from all unrighteousness." -1 John 1:9

5. Assurance of Guidance
"Trust in the Lord with all your hear and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." -Proverbs 3:5-6

I really like the last assurance. and i really love that verse and i'm gonna make it my verse for the year. sometimes i just love doing things my way; my style; on my own strength and somehow i just dont seem to get some stuff. and that's cos i'm not relying on God for strength and trusting in him. so yeah tt's gonna be my verse! yes debo yes. :)

on another note, i like had duck for dinner and now i smell. man i'm never EVER gonna eat duck again cos it's so smelly. hurr. and last night me and my bro did some hanging out..well kinda..with some math questions and physcis stuff HAHA i love my bro man. he's just so fun and interesting to be around. no wonder he's a total lady killer man. yes so anyway we hung out till abt 4am and we were supposed to go gymming at 5am but i pangsehed him in the end :/ BLEHHS cos by 4.30am i was so tired i decided to have a half an hour nap but by 5 i totally couldnt get up! i could hear my bro but i was like paralyzed!! kind of.. haha..it's part of the sleep cycle by the way. if i rmb correctly. hurr.
anyway my bro's so cool la. haha i love the way he lists his list of things to do. freaking hilarious. haha it's kinda vulgar so i shant depict it here haha but ahh..haha :):)
webo @ 8:18 PM

haha zomg! i love the doggy :)
wad a smart dog
can pat his head and rub his belly!

this baby's so cute!

webo @ 10:34 PM

i'm a damn sad excuse of a person man
2 posts in a day!
and so angsty

ok so maybe just just now
i'm much better after a nice sleep
so yeah
i spend my day with my bed, books and talking to blogger
sad sad
come on man debz

oh oh i just like ate one whole packet of really hard crackers
zomg they were so hard that i nearly thought i'd go deaf after eating them
the crunching sound was soo loud!!
HAHA :)
but i still can hear now. haha

/EDIT/
oh yeah wanted to blog that my friend ofe is soo lucky! her counsillor's friend like gave her a box of bones. real ones! for free! and tt person's not even her counsillor
lucky gal mann!! i also want!!

on a random note,
i absolutely LOVE drawing trochanters of the femur
HURR HURR :)

peace out :)
webo @ 6:59 PM

freakin bored
freakin sian
ZZZZZZZZ

i hate the feeling of being obligated to do things
i hate having to give reasons or explain my situation

i like to do things cos i want to
not cos i've been doing them
or cos i should be doing them

in the same way i hate doing things that'll make my life difficult for myself
like dissing certain important pple off
not just important
but pple who mean loads to me
and pple whom i love
and pple who love me back
and want nothing but the best for me

even if that means going against my obligations
but at the same time
explaining myself would put them down
which i dont like to
and i think i've done enough
yet vindicating myself
makes me more comfortable
or so i think

dammit. wont anyone ever understand.
angsty mode. so meant to die.
efff et.
dont need anyone's sympathy or empathy.
in fact, i dont need no one.
just them 'rents, bro and mygirls.

die world die.

webo @ 12:37 PM

why did i have to read snell, not know the meaning of intussception and google it??
first link on google:
http://www.kidshealth.org/parent/system/surgical/intussusception.html

i hate you google
just when everything was getting better
the cute baby at the top doesnt help either
stupid google
oh how i hate you so
webo @ 9:49 PM

it's like all the disappointment just collected and poured out on this lazy sunday aft.
i just wanna stay under the covers and never get up
never get up to face the world

maybe it's the monotonous studying
maybe it's the toughness in trying to grab the little ones' attention despite all their cuteness
maybe it's being pangseh-ed for lessons twice
and the disappointment in trusting a fren in a work partnership
all the irresponsibility in failing to notify :/:/
(it doesnt matter what the reason is, and that includes being unwell. certainly dropping a msg even hours aft wont suck the life out of you dammit.)
things arent supposed to be like that. the last minute preparation and all. but still i went along only to be the only one to have to prepare it all in like 15mins?
maybe it's the impending pbl lesson tmr where there's grp work to be presented and nobody has done anything yet
or maybe the root of it all is how sometimes the person u least expect to disappoint you does just that
and all you ever wanted to do is to stick by their side through thick and thin
but that just doesnt materialise for some weird reason that you just cannot comprehend

sometimes u wanna trust the human race
but after so much have happened,
that's probably not possible anymore

we live in a scary world
a world where people care for nothing but themselves and their selfish needs
i'm not ready for it
i'm just disillusioned, maybe.

love isnt forever, so tell me what forever's for?

webo @ 5:02 PM

zomg i reached home at 1ish today and slept until 6pm
wad a wasted day!!

anyways i'm really irritated now..cos
I'M FEEDING MOSQUITOES
I LOST MY GREEN HIGHLIGHTER cos i fell asleep with snell whilst on my bed
MY NEWLY BOUGHT GREEN PEN DOESNT WORK
and I REALLY NEED TO HIGHLIGHT/WRITE CERTAIN WORDS AND PHRASES IN GREEN
cos it's so glaringly a green thing to highlight/write!!

gosh i do have OCD, dont i? esp when it comes to work related stuff zzz
it's like i even gave my newish nus writing pad to my bro in exchange for a half-left-azone one i gave him earlier cos i felt the nus writing pad doesnt absorb my ink fast enough!! zzz..i'm weird like that..blehhhhssss
i complained to my mum and she said..u know something..u're so grumpy HAHA T.T
grumpy dumpy me. boos oh wells :/

you know you have had too much of nerves when you start spelling Vegas as vagus
:S

webo @ 7:34 PM

i am very happy cos tmr i only have 1 tutorial! at 10am. haha can wake up later.
but..i'm barely even half way through my tutorial at it's almost 2am..zzz
i havent even showered yet! zzzz
ok but i'm not so sleepy yet cos i had a nap in the afternoon..which is a really bad habit!! gotta change that!!!
had my 2nd clinical yest :) interesting stuff. God willingly i'll become astute enough by the time i graduate
alright better get back to my tutorial.

and mr moon,
he came by,
to say goodnight to you
♥

/EDIT/
okies so i'm done with tutorial and shower :)
i love keeping late nights cos it's quiet and there's almost nothing to distract me (xcept blogger and facebook haha)
just me, my thoughts, my text and maybe the music playing in the bgd
bored bored bored and totally not sleepy
man..i better stop sleeping in the afternoon! i'm WIDE AWAKE O.O 3.32am!
webo @ 3:32 AM

let me be a little kinder,
let me be a little blinder,
to the faults of those around me,
let me praise a little more.

let me pray when i am weary,
be a little bit more cheery;
think a little more of others
and a little less of me

let me be a little braver,
when temptation bids me waver,
let me strive a little harder,
to be all that i should be :)

let me be a little meeker
with a brother who is weaker,
let me think more of my neighbour
and a little less of me!!

si left for melb today :( boohoo
will miss her.
oh wells. have fun si :) see ya at the end of the yr

webo @ 11:34 PM

one day i was wondering
what life's all about
life is full of heartache
restlessness and doubt
then one day a gentle stranger
whispered words of love
lalalalala

i know where i'm going
and whom i'm going to meet
i have a friend named jesus
waiting there for me :)
he can give life meaning that only he can give
lalalalala

just came back from yf chinese new year reunion dinner thingy. had the usual singspiration and then we played captain's ball before the dinner. was really fun :) dinner was really good steamboat plus icecream! lyd and i were quite glad we were far above from the steamboat thingy cos then we could just sit down and wait for the guys to fill our bowls haha :)
i'm glad i went to yf today! it's been like 2/3 weeks?? yeah :D
love the song above..but i kinda forgot the rest of the lyrics hence the lalalas but oh wells. it's a really meaningful song :)
anyways i'm really sticky now! shall go shower. tataa :)
webo @ 10:10 PM

i still think about how it used to be
so entwined in my own lies
surrounded by this make believe

ive been held by despondency
i should have known the road I chose would run out on me

i could have faded
been jaded
by every consequence

every word that you hurdled
was part of my defense

you can hurt me
desert me
it makes no difference
i give as good as i get

like a weight falling from my shoulders
im not going to go that way again

when everybody said that my days were over
wouldnt get the time to comprehend

you should have known it would make me stronger
i was never gonna fade away
i keep it coming
my destiny aint running away from me
and it's all so bittersweet

in my life
i had no room for comprimise
the things ive done have been the ones i have had to leave behind
look in my eyes
you'll barely recognise
the woman who depended on you to sing a little praise or criticise

so I hide it
divide it
bout what I feel inside
now I take it
or make it
im gonna be alright

whether you need me,
believe me,
youll never hurt my pride

it's almost 3am!! zzz sleepy hurr..shall go sleepp
webo @ 2:26 AM

vday was really good today :) was unexpected! i really thought it'd be the suckiest day ever
but
YAY it wasnt!
i went to school earlier. had lunch with sheryl and gen and "studied" (read talk n talk) with sheryl. had tutorial. den hit town to have a girls night out! so fun. we saw many gays arnd! haha man really love them so much! (i'm refering to my girls..not the gays..haha)
and i had a nice surprise today too! a msg all the way from hk! ;)

hehe :)
hugs everybody!
happy vday!
xoxo
webo @ 11:52 PM

:(
really wish things were back to normal
or at least amiable
webo @ 11:43 PM

school was good today
nothing like a good confusing lecture on the submandibularregion :) and i'm not being sacarstic
somehow i prefer those complexities and complications to...
i only vaguely have a rough idea of that region but i think i like stuff that kinda confuse me. i'm weird like that. :) but i know i'll sort that mess in time. maybe that's why i like it.
gonna miss u truckloads eunice ;'(


honestly what will become of me;don't like reality;it's way too clear to me;But really life is dandy;we are what we don't see;missed everything daydreaming
webo @ 6:39 PM

There's a hole in the world like a great black pit and it's filled with people who are filled with shit.

2008 has been a freaking bad year even though feb just kinda began.
i dont understand a lot of things and it's freaking not fair.
i cant help but hate ur guts
dont give a shit; dont give a shit; dont give a shit, anymore.
eunice is leaving tmr. shitzzz

don't wanna leave it all behind;but I get my hopes up;and I watch them fall everytime

webo @ 9:07 PM

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webo @ 1:42 PM