just came back for eunice's place! man today was really fun :)
laksa was really awesome..all the humhumhum :) and the otah and the RIBS and chickenwings and the longan jelly dessert thangy. whee. :P

we played spongebob monopoly too! and man. i was gonna win la. almost at the end of the game, i decided to auction off my properties and i sold my 350quid spongebob pineapple house to nads for $980 BUCKS! (nads and liz were fighting for buy my property) HAHA :P smug me thought i was gonna win the game..haha..i had like $2656 in value mann. and i was sure i was gonna win and was doing my victory chant when everyone was still counting their $$. haha.. but i cheered too early..gen beat me!! dannnnngg..

so then we migrated to the living room area and surprised nads with a cake! yummy yummy cake from SICC. in the meantime, we watched final destination 3 but we chickened out halfway (/EDIT/: 10min..hurr..happy lizzie bizzie wizzie?? :)) cos it was scaryyy! my palms were reallly really sweaty. :X
haha so anyway we then decided to play mahjong. my first time. wah so complicated! i figured it's kind of a mix of heartattack and speed. just that u dont use cards, but tiles and that u dont really have to be quick. hurr..i still dont get the game man. esp the part abt me getting a chicken which ate a worm..and den everyone gave me a plastic disc ($?) ??? hurr..mahjong is a reaaally strange game.

anyway, so i'm home now. and i'm pretty dead cos i havent really started on lower limbs and there's still histology- i fell asleep in the aft man :( and i woke up in the afternoon. so it's like wake up and den back to sleep again. blehsss. i wont have time to study on mon too cos i'll be home late on mon. and the FA is on tue?? booooo :(

P.S. genius lent me her hairspray album! woohoo :)
Ev'ry afternoon
When the clock strikes four
(bop-bee-ba, ba-ba-ba-ba, bee-ba)
A crazy bunch of kids
Crash through that door
(bop-bee-ba, ba-ba-ba-ba, bee-ba)

webo @ 1:20 AM

i just spent my entire morning looking at zacefron thingys..interviews etc on youtube. omg he is so absolutely charming. dangg.. how i wish i were going to USC! omg den i'll be in the same college, and same freshmen year as him! OMGGG he and vanessahugens even have a 'loveship' ring. omg how sweet is that man.. omgomg i cant believe i'm was like soo close to meeting him (ok not very close la) but i mean all i had to do was apply to usc! omgomgomg.

ok enough of daydreaming. have to start on my work now..proximal attachment to the proximal two-thirds of the supraepicondylar ridge of the humerus..blah blah deep extensor muscles of forearm..lateral to wadever medial to ?? ..booo..
my 4th day on upperlimbs and i'm not even done yet :( and there's still lowerlimbs and bood and HISTOLOGYY :( to complete..booo...
webo @ 1:55 PM

man. i think i'm a really easily stressed person..either that or i'm suffering from OCD. my mum very kindly :) helped me wrap the rest of my textbooks on mon but i felt really really disturbed and STRESSED by the 'loose wrapping'. it wasnt loose actually; in fact it was quite tight but i really dunno why i kept feeling tt it was too shiny and distracting and i was getting really irritated by the 'loose' plastic. gee. :(
and i just received an email tt my nametag will be coming soon and i realised tt it would be starting with my name instead of my surname (it's prob my fault cos i always write my name first..and i prob did on the signup sheet?) and i'm feeling kinda stressed by just THAT? omg. wad is happening to you debo!! (and now i'm talking to myself)
internal turmoil internal turmoil internal turmoil..GAHS and i'm feeling so antisocial too. everyday's just study study study! moores and snells have become the 'pple' i hand out with during my hols..boohoo..i hang out with books! omg. how sad is tt man. sad sad sad. test when school reopens and i'm not even quarter through. :(

anyway, last night, after QT, i stayed awake as i lay down on my bed and was pretty disturbed by the fact tt the body is just a body. like where's the (anatomical position) soul? yes i'm like damn weird. geez i'm turing into a med geek. :( i think i must have been too tired..but yeah it was disturbing.. wad triggered me off was the picture of the severed forearm tt we saw last friday and i mean like. yeah wads cut off is cut off so u gotta stitch/join/glue wadever it back. so then does the soul have a forearm attachment? is it modelled after the body? wad comes next? well anyway tt's a stupid inconsequential question but it moved me on to the temporarility (no such word but i dont care) of the human body. i mean yeah. it's kinda wad u see is wad u get. it's like a shell. a wonderfully intricately designed shell. but when u loose a limb, u feel pain, u might get it reattached, u might not..but after that..what comes after that? at the end of the day, we die and that's it. what happens next? what happens next? what happens next?
well, i know what happens next- we get to go to heaven for believing in Jesus and for believing tt we are sinners saved only by God's grace. but u know, much as i believe it, tt's really so much like just a textbook answer tt sometimes we, myself included, are likely to say without much thought. but when i do think abt it, the process of how we actually get to heaven does terrify me still and the only thing tt's keeping me sane is knowing that God is in control of everything and I can just trust in his care. He cares for the silly awkard looking bird, with eyes placed on the peripherals of its head (can u imagine how hard it is to look for tiny brown earthworms in the soil with eyes like tt??). He cares for the lifeless looking (to me at least) plants. so of cos He cares for me!
sounds like a FALLACY (defn: component of an argument that is demonstrably flawed in logic or form, thus rendering the argument invalid in whole; btw fallacies are a v interesting topic! note to self: read more abt this when u're free) but I know it's true and sometimes it's kinda hard to prove everything. the verse i received from tin's mum this morning (she msges me a verse a day) is "You shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free" John 8:32
how timely and appropriate.
you know, if we try to reason out everything, we can go crazy, and i mean crazy by the true sense of the word.
i cant say that i never ever had doubts about whether everything i believe in is true and whether i'm just following herd mentality. in fact, from time to time, i do question myself whether i'm such making much ado about nothing. but look at the world, look at the human body. could it have all come together by chance? by the big bang? by some random fusion and tt formed an amoeba which evolved into a human being? chances are, NO. my God is real!
webo @ 12:32 PM

ahh..why is it that the chapter on upper limbs never ends?? and i'm only looking at pictures in the atlas..there's still the tb of over 90 pages..ahh

haha..anyway met genius for the secret mission today..wahaha. tupid..everybodae pangseh..haha..but we pangsehed BEEHOONakaSIEWSakaCECILIA for lunch today cos as usual, we were running late. cant elaborate on the secret mission for now..xcept that i suck at using varnish and genius had to salvage all the mess i made. haha it was fun though :P HAHA carrying out our secret mission while listening to the HAIRSPRAY soundtrack! :):)
so anyway on last saturday, we met at swensens for one last dinner out before nads leaves. was fun fun fun! hmm..but thinking back, i feel quite horrbile abt all the gossiping. it was all fine and dandy then but when i got home i felt kinda like sheeeett..and even worse the next day during church.. hmm the tongue's such a powerful instrument! so hard to control. esp when it is fun to talk abt scandalous stuff tt we hear. oh wells. must stop, debo!!

oh welllss..anyways justin left for taiwan last night..ahh for 3 weeks! hmm i've/will be going to the airport so often these days.. on last thur, i went to get my 'rents from the airport, yest(sun) i went to send justin off, this wed my maid's going back for oneandahalf months and this coming sun my dear old pal nads will be flying off!! boohooss :(

nananananana..YOU ARE THE MUSIC IN ME ♥
haha.. mann i'm such a sucker for teenage booper pieces :P
webo @ 10:23 PM

ONCE in a lifetime
means there’s no second chance
so I believe that you and me
should grab it while we can :)

i think med is a great vocation bcos it not only intellectually stimulating but it challenges one to develop as a person. today during anat, we got to see some really serious clinical cases. some were pretty gruesome, to say the very least. it was then that i realised that docs have to be brave and rather desensitised, yet caring at the same time. and that docs must be able to stabilise themselves and do what they need to do. what a tall order.

mann..i've been sounding so serious the past few days. haha but yeah i do actually think abt life issues too. i have the utmost respect for all the healthcare workers- doctors, nurses, healthcare assistants alike (and in no particular order, i must stress). it really isn't easy.
mann..my dad's my hero. patient (a lil too long winded tho :x haha), brave, stable and calm yet caring and has really good hands! he is the greatest doc in the whole world! i wanna be just like him at the end of my med sch and for the rest of my med career.
i wanna be like my mum too. balancing family and work as though it were a stroll in the park and having great pple management skills. wow isn't it?
GOD really is so good to provide me with such wonderful parents :)
i love you 'rents! :)

it's great to have them back from liverpool! but it was kinda sad cos by the time i got to the airport to get them back, they were on the way back already! hiyo.
wells, anyway they took pics and i got to see the uni that i was supposed to go to. liverpool seems like a really really nice place. my parents said tt the bus driver actually stopped the bus halfway (with all the pple waiting patiently) to draw a map for them and to even write a letter to ask the next bus to give them a free ride cos they missed their stop. awesome innit?

~hawana wakawakawakaniki pu pu pu
the pineapple princess tiki :)
webo @ 10:11 PM

i got the highschoolmusical2 album!! :P WHEE. i love all the songs mann! :P
anyways, school's out! :P recess weeek!

i want FABULOUS
that is my simple request
all things fabulous
BIGGER and better and best

:)
webo @ 8:35 PM

i'm starting to feel the pinches of frank speech and just blurting out whatever comes to my mind. much as i want to be different, be just me, sometimes, it's just best to take my mum's advice and learn not to speak.
in some ways it's kind of like what the plenary speaker at our professionalism seminar, abt 2 fridays back, mentioned abt gd surgeons.

a gd surgeon knows how to operate,
a better surgeon knows when to operate,
but the best surgeon knows when not to operate.

i noe i am taking this very much out of context but these concepts, together with personal experience does kind of click.
learning when not to speak, is perhaps empathy maybe? trying to understand what someone else feels and then know what to say or not. this may just be duh to some pple..but for me, i'm still learning.

let me cite an experience from abt a week back when i exclaimed abt 'being glad to have finished O and A Levels and extremely happy that I'd never have to go through that again' to a fren who just finished the A Level preliminary examinations. i am still kind of shocked abt how my reckless speech can be so insensitive sometimes. :(
a more recent experience would be drawing attention to certain mundane happenings and thus causing a bit of unhappiness. this happened twice, the first time not really by me, but yeah. excessive blabbering that could have been prevented. i'm gonna be really vague bcos i dont see a need to really elaborate abt these events since they're over and kinda personal- between just the parties involved. they werent really major issues. just really small ones but enough to get me thinking. nonetheless, it just emphasises to me that less speech= less misinterpretation of actions/intentions. sometimes, it could just be a slip in the memory part of the brain (cant cite which part exactly yet..haha) but tt could be enough to lead to strained relationships.

on another note,
my parents are gonna be back tmr! haha. life's been pretty crazy without the 'rents around. let's see..my bro bought an electric guitar, and is now sporting a really strange hairstyle, i sneaked out to watch ratatouille in the middle of the night when i had a test coming up, (yes. my range of crazy is kinda sad when u compare it with my bro's haha. dang. my sad uninteresting life. mann..i need more guts!), 3 of my cushions have pee on them thanks to keag!, i managed to stay out for an entire day w/o reporting my whereabouts (cheap thrill i know..haha) and it's been non-stop airconditiong in my bro's room.
haha..yeah..but i miss my parents! yes i do and i cant wait to get them from the airport tmr!

ALSO,
justin booked out tonight!! off in lieu cos he'll be going to taiwan for 3 weeks this coming mon. :(
but nonetheless yay :P i love spending my time with him cos he's just so nice and cute and fun to be with! going rollerblading tmr after school! woohooo :P
webo @ 12:13 AM

i feel kinda slack today..dont feel like doing any work!! just completed my biochem FA online..whee..which is a big load off my mind..cos i missed all those lectures and i was quite scared i'd fail..but yay praise God 14/20..not full marks but i didnt fail!! :) it's not counted into the final marks but still i'm happy it's overrrr! WHEEEE
webo @ 7:24 PM

webo @ 10:25 PM

my SNELL smells of some sweet smelling pastry..wad a weird new book smell..

met nads, sheryl and gen for lunch today!
it was a pity eunice couldnt join us cos she had to do some visitation at the hospital but we bumped into her at holland v later anyway so yay! wad a fun day today! :p we ate at the coffeegrounds place at md11 while waiting for gen to finish lessons..den when she was done, we zooped down to brekos for dessert/ lunch for gen. WHEE. i love chilling like that and it's even cooler cos like i dunno..the car and all..driving out for lunch. yeah..cos aft tt nads zooped back to nus to drop gen back for her tutorial. haha..coolios. the wonders of cars :P i want one too..unfortunately..my BTT is only in november..loong time more.. hahas..

i got a neck ache :/

anyway justin's such a dear! :P i was complaining abt how hard it is to use lecture slides to study..all the huge words and point forms..and i dunno..he always makes me feel better! :P i thank God for you!! :D

oh yeah..i'm feeling quie no life-ish now though..cos i havent joined any CCA yet and it seems my whole life is abt trying to catch up with all the missed work..zzz ahh..anyway, sheryl, gen and i are thinking of starting our own CCA- a 'musical' thingy inspired by hairspray! :P yay. still figuring out the details..so till then :)
webo @ 11:25 PM

wooh..finally had the time for an update! i'm at nusmed now :) GOD IS SO GOOD hallelujah! :P

school's been really really busy but u noe wad? i'm enjoying it :) very interesting..got loads of biochem stuff to catch up on tho..i've got FAs in mid sept. i printed out the lecture slides of the many many lectures tt i missed..haha..and it's sooo thick O.O die. haha
webo @ 7:50 PM