gahss...
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
gahs. i'm suddenly getting rather emo abt not going to liverpool again:( SIGHS. why aren't i going there GOD? i noe you have your plans and i noe you gave me a choice..but somehow even though everything in my heart is telling me to go there, i end up in some place else. why is is always like that Lord? with jc, with uni. why is it that i always have to give in to pressures around me. i noe you have your reasons and your perfect plan but right now, at this point in time, with my short-sighted and lowly brain, I really cant seem to understand. pls help me to understand and help me to go through the next 5 years without regretting this decision and without tellin myself that i'm living in misery. guard my heart, my brain and my mouth from complaining and being uncontented. help me to take a step back and understand how fortunate I am to even study med overseas. help me never to forget that the course is expensive and help me never be an ungrateful brat towards my parents. You, Lord are my only hope. Draw me near to you Lord. Help me not to forget that you should take precedence over everything I do...and that you, Lord, should always be number 1 in my life. not my work, not my sleep, not anything else. help me O heavenly Father. I know you can.anyways, prayer meeting is going on now but i'm at home. :( i just feel so tired. sighs. debo. noo.
oh wells, i've been thinking that i've got nothing to thank God for this week other than for my life and my parents and bro and for health and for comfortable lives, but after thinking about it again, I realise I do. and thinking about it, there is always something special to thank God for each week.
1. met K for the first time since 2004 (i think?) wad a cute little thing. I thank God for you and I know God has a special purpose for you on this Earth. May you grow up to love God as your one an true Saviour and heavenly father.
2. met a taxi driver (Taxi Jack..haha that's how he introduced himself) on my way back to m g after bringing a sick scholar to a doctor (haha.. yes my job does sometimes require me to do quite random stuff..it's fun though!) As we drove into m g, he asked if I was a Christian and told me that he was not but also not very sure bcos he's thinking of becoming a Protestant (currently a Catholic) and that he doesnt go to church cos he had to work. anyway, then we had a little chat and I gave him my name and church's address. hope he comes this Sunday. I really thank God for taxi jack! and the opportunity to invite him to church! I thank God for even the fact that he acknowledges that he is not really a christian even though he is a Catholic. i suppose he does know the difference and that's really by God's grace because a lot of catholics dont and inadvertently lose their chance to be with God when they pass on.
it's tough to be a Christian but it certainly is worth it. thanks Lord for dying on the cross for my sins! haha..some 2S mass msn convo going on now. shall go. taataa. :) I FEEL MUCH BETTER ALREADY LORD! in due tme, i will understand. :) thanks LORD!
webo @ 8:31 PM