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Thursday, September 20, 2007

i'm starting to feel the pinches of frank speech and just blurting out whatever comes to my mind. much as i want to be different, be just me, sometimes, it's just best to take my mum's advice and learn not to speak.
in some ways it's kind of like what the plenary speaker at our professionalism seminar, abt 2 fridays back, mentioned abt gd surgeons.

a gd surgeon knows how to operate,
a better surgeon knows when to operate,
but the best surgeon knows when not to operate.

i noe i am taking this very much out of context but these concepts, together with personal experience does kind of click.
learning when not to speak, is perhaps empathy maybe? trying to understand what someone else feels and then know what to say or not. this may just be duh to some pple..but for me, i'm still learning.

let me cite an experience from abt a week back when i exclaimed abt 'being glad to have finished O and A Levels and extremely happy that I'd never have to go through that again' to a fren who just finished the A Level preliminary examinations. i am still kind of shocked abt how my reckless speech can be so insensitive sometimes. :(
a more recent experience would be drawing attention to certain mundane happenings and thus causing a bit of unhappiness. this happened twice, the first time not really by me, but yeah. excessive blabbering that could have been prevented. i'm gonna be really vague bcos i dont see a need to really elaborate abt these events since they're over and kinda personal- between just the parties involved. they werent really major issues. just really small ones but enough to get me thinking. nonetheless, it just emphasises to me that less speech= less misinterpretation of actions/intentions. sometimes, it could just be a slip in the memory part of the brain (cant cite which part exactly yet..haha) but tt could be enough to lead to strained relationships.

on another note,
my parents are gonna be back tmr! haha. life's been pretty crazy without the 'rents around. let's see..my bro bought an electric guitar, and is now sporting a really strange hairstyle, i sneaked out to watch ratatouille in the middle of the night when i had a test coming up, (yes. my range of crazy is kinda sad when u compare it with my bro's haha. dang. my sad uninteresting life. mann..i need more guts!), 3 of my cushions have pee on them thanks to keag!, i managed to stay out for an entire day w/o reporting my whereabouts (cheap thrill i know..haha) and it's been non-stop airconditiong in my bro's room.
haha..yeah..but i miss my parents! yes i do and i cant wait to get them from the airport tmr!

ALSO,
justin booked out tonight!! off in lieu cos he'll be going to taiwan for 3 weeks this coming mon. :(
but nonetheless yay :P i love spending my time with him cos he's just so nice and cute and fun to be with! going rollerblading tmr after school! woohooo :P

webo @ 12:13 AM