it's like all the disappointment just collected and poured out on this lazy sunday aft.
i just wanna stay under the covers and never get up
never get up to face the world

maybe it's the monotonous studying
maybe it's the toughness in trying to grab the little ones' attention despite all their cuteness
maybe it's being pangseh-ed for lessons twice
and the disappointment in trusting a fren in a work partnership
all the irresponsibility in failing to notify :/:/
(it doesnt matter what the reason is, and that includes being unwell. certainly dropping a msg even hours aft wont suck the life out of you dammit.)
things arent supposed to be like that. the last minute preparation and all. but still i went along only to be the only one to have to prepare it all in like 15mins?
maybe it's the impending pbl lesson tmr where there's grp work to be presented and nobody has done anything yet
or maybe the root of it all is how sometimes the person u least expect to disappoint you does just that
and all you ever wanted to do is to stick by their side through thick and thin
but that just doesnt materialise for some weird reason that you just cannot comprehend

sometimes u wanna trust the human race
but after so much have happened,
that's probably not possible anymore

we live in a scary world
a world where people care for nothing but themselves and their selfish needs
i'm not ready for it
i'm just disillusioned, maybe.

love isnt forever, so tell me what forever's for?